Christmas Eve...didn't have any plans (save your pity, thanks!) so I made it a carb-load day after 5 days of hard dieting. Last minute invite to a friends' dinner and I make it a point to show up after they've eaten (as I'm stuffed to the gills with oatmeal.) I enter and join folks still sitting around the table, wherein I'm encouraged to eat the leftover decadent meal. I say no "a few times" but still am being pushed to eat. (ANYONE ELSE HATE THIS???)

So, hoping to shut them up with a solid answer, I start in on "I carb-loaded earlier as part of my fitness regimen" and "this is why I usually don't attend social dinners." And some guy says "Wow, did you just confess to an eating disorder? This conversation is getting too deep for me." Well fuck you all!!

I used to live in Orange County, where appearance is paramount and discussions of diet are completely ordinary. Now I live in San Francisco and am socializing with artists who embody a different kind of beauty...none of whom are athletes.

Frankly, YES, I have had eating disorders. I don't mind talking about it. But it certainly doesn't justify people trying to force me to eat. I'm also extremely sensitive to insulin so "just a bite" of processed carbs at the wrong time is bad for my overall PH. Nutrient timing anyone?? Not in this new crowd.

What to do what to do???